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GREENIE FREAK!
whats so wrong with GREEN .
My gorgeous name's Cecilia or CC. Blows candles on every 0707. Resides in little red dot Singapore. Overly obsessed with green, just green! If you hate me, what are you doing here? If not, enjoy your stay here. - Welcome :]

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Sunday, November 7, 2010 - 8:27 AM

Life is still the same ever since the day I came back. I haven gotten any permernant job as they people are desperately holding on to them to ensure their big bonus at the end of the year (well at least that's the reason that I assume as to why I'm still jobless). I do have a part-time job thou, despite being a cheap labour one. Initially I did it because ..... 1.passion, 2.flexibility of quitting whenever i want. But right now, I feel like moving on ... perhaps it's just the stress of getting a decent job that makes me wonder why am I still with this lame job, when all my hardwork is simply not being recognised? Wells, for being a responsible soul and accounting to some of my friends, I shall stay on to help till they are 'stable' or until I get my job!

It's officially 1-month since I have been back here in SG. My mindset is still the same. I am constantly thinking about whether if it's really possible to work overseas, like a internship in USA? Even herman commented that doing a internship/ job at NZ would be easy as their goverment seems to be attracting Singaporeans over. I'm still keeping my options open, so who knows I might do something crazy one day .......... ..........

Till then, Jobstreet and Jobscentral are my friends :')

Saturday, October 16, 2010 - 7:21 AM

I'm in Singapore !!!!!!!!!!

Haven been blogging since I came back. Of course there's lots of settling to be done, unpacking of stuff, and most importantly find a job! It has been 1 week ... but no luck so far :( Well, everyone says that we are in the wrong industry. That's right! It's a industry that you have to work really hard, 10X the work of other industry, but yet you get a super low salary. Oh well, that's my life ... I choosed it, so I got to face it!

That aside .. coming back to Singapore is really tough for me. I still miss everything there, especially my beloved friends, and I know I still talked alot about them, pardon me please! Moreover, everything back there is so carefree. I go to the mall, the beach, the streets or just chill out at my home backyard as and when I like it. No one would yell at me to do stuff, and I know there's nothing waiting or bothering me .... Life in SG is completely different! The stress of finding a job is already killing me, not to mention having to deal with my parents all the time. Well at least I have a part time job right now, so it's gonna finance me abit ... Wish me luck, and hopefully my phone will ring soon for an interview please !!!!!!!!

Thursday, September 23, 2010 - 7:38 PM

The week passed by so quickly that I almost can't remember what I did. We spend 3 full days building up all the game stands. It's amazing how these pieces of wooden planks get fitted together to form the whole game stand that is actually stable enough to be stand on. All our stand are almost done, and all we are left is the stocking of the games. It's surprising that we managed to get the stuff done with the situation between the Bulgarians and Americans going on. There has been alot of yelling and pissing off kind of stuff. It does annoy me at times, as I figured that people should just shut up, and do whatever they are told to do rather than bitching about it. It's even more amusing that people bigger in size than me can't carry carton boxes and complains about it being heavy, then goes around telling people that I'm so small in size and I should'nt be carry all the stuff. Hahaha ... it's really hilarious. So what if I'm that only small little asian girl out there, I can accomplish much more stuff than you girls, so don't ever doubt me.

Tomorrow is the big day where the fair would actually open !!!! We had a nice dinner tonight, I guess as a 'Thank You' dinner .. before we all started working our ass off from tomorrow onwards. The food and service was awesome. Most importantly it was paid for by our boss, so of course we got to order anything we wanted including liquors, wahahaha! I bet the bill cost a huge bomb ... opps .... :)

Our nice and cute server that even did an extra large sundae for us .... nice! :')

I just realised i haven posted pictures in my bloggy for a long long time ...........................................

Tuesday, September 21, 2010 - 4:07 PM

It finally took me 4.5 months to come to the realization that work are'nt that fun without all your friends around. This time, I'm really ready to go back home, to get back to my normal life ... drink bubble tea, chat on the phone for hours gossiping about someone, or simply hanging out with my beloved friends. I would say my time here in USA is awesome. I did have a fun time, but I did get hurt at times when people does nasty stuff to you. Nonetheless it was an experience for me to learn whether anot i did enjoy or get hurt ... ...

2 weeks of hard work in Bloomsburg, and I'm going back to Singapore. It has only be gone for 2 days, and I'm seriously going nuts?! I really don't know when I can't take it and I might just yell at someone. The work here is indeed hardwork, but I'm a workaholic so it does not matter to me. It is the people around me that is seriously driving me crazy. There's basically a bunch of Bulgarians and Macedonians (they speak almost similar language), and of course a whole bunch of Americans out there. I'm pretty close with one of the Bulgarians girl whom I have work with, and was my roommate for the past 2 weeks. But it totally pisses me off when she goes on and on with her friends in their own language, while I'm the only dumb ass asian among them. I have told them that I can't understand any of them if they don't speak English, and there's no way I can work. They did apologise to me now when they speak their language. But what I want is not apologies, but simply to speak in a language that I can understand. Worse still, not only I have to deal with this at work, 2 of the Bulgarians girls are in the same room as me and their conversations continue on in the room. This is freaking irritating, but I seriously don't wish to get into a fight. Therefore, I simply plug in my earphones, and listen to my own songs.

I wish my group of friends were here with me. At least with the Singaporeans, even though we are chinese, we do the minimum respect to the rest by speaking in English !!!!!!! This 2 weeks is gonna end soon I hope ... I really miss my lovely home right now :/ ............................................. and i love my SG friends .............................................................. :')

Thursday, September 9, 2010 - 5:58 PM

It has almost been one week since I came back to seaside. Life is'nt the same anymore. I was really sad that I could'nt go back to work (even though we all complained about how sucky work is, it's still the place that we have the most fun with all the friends around). There was alot of goodbye. I came to realized that saying goodbye to those leaving you is actually more difficult than you saying gooodbye when you are leaving yourself. Even though I have my dislike and like about some of the co-workers, we have actually became so closed together after staying together for 3 months.

I visit the work place the very last night before the actual shut down ... the night was really quiet. Finally the time came, and everyone was closing down the place, saying that it would be the last time that they will be doing it. I wished I could be part of it, but I could'nt .. I jus stood beside to watch. We went to the club nearby, and party for the last time. This time round ... I really wanted to get drunk. For some reason, I remained really sober after 3 drinks .... oh wells! As time passed by ... it was time ... time for those leaving to go home to clean up and pack up their stuff. I continued to visit them, and I did'nt go back to my new home for 3 whole nights. Even if I did went home, I sneak out ... One by one, I send them off. Now the whole apartment that was once filled with laughs, is dark and quiet ...

Things have changed too. I have 1 more week plus before going to job fair. Gonna do my own stuff, hang out around ............... Till then, I will see if my choice was right :')

Saturday, September 4, 2010 - 10:52 PM

As I write this post now ... it's the beginning of my adventure TWO at seaside heights. My trip with my mum and brother ended, and I just send them off to their flight a few minutes ago. I kind of felt sad that I won't be seeing them for another 1 month. But on the happier side, I'm glad that my mum finally had the chance to visit US. Even though she was'nt feeling really well throughout the trip, but I could see that she enjoyed herself, and got the chance to do outlet shopping !!

So right now, I'm sitting at the airport all alone, waiting for my flight back to New Jersey, which is 7 hours away .... I'm excited, but yet scared. For some reason that I dunno why. Perhaps I don't know what to expect at the other side and I'm worried that something bad would happen. Oh wells it's an adventure for me ... so let's see what happens next :)

Friday, August 27, 2010 - 1:06 AM

I finally met up with my mum and brother in USA. Even though as excited I wanna be, I did'nt really had that feeling. I'm pretty sure that I have gotten used to my independent lifestyle in USA, doing all the things I want, making my own choices, without anyone controlling me. I'm dread my mum nagging at me once again. Asking me about everything I do. All right, I know I'm really selfish .....

Then again, 3 days of travelling and I'm already so stress up. I was the one who had to plan the whole itenary, and I'm so freaking afraid that I will screw things up. I am the one that has to navigate through the whole city. I am the one that basically has to make a decision on everything, which can go on from food to shopping to sight seeing. I have to pack all the luggages, making sure everything is taken. Worse still, as I come online every night to settle stuff and book stuff, all my mum want is to use my laptop to watch her drama online! Then as I go online to do my stuff, such as checking of emails and facebook, my mum simply sits beside me and look at everything i do online. When it comes to personal messages that my friend sends, she starts asking about who is this person and that. Seriously this is driving me nuts .......

Wells, I still got to treasure the time I have here. So i shall look on the bright side and have a happy trip. I'm really trying to, because I'm sooooo freaking missing all my friends back in NEw Jersey, and I wish to get my ass back there soon :)